I couldn't have said it better...

Always Wishing....

I am always wishing that I were better at this posting thing. I keep telling myself I need to be more consistant than I am. I guess I just don't think that much is going on that needs to be reported to whoever it is out there is reading this. Sometimes I wonder if a blog is even worth it... am I just putting random thoughts out into the world? But then I think that it has become somewhat therapeutic. I am able to get my thoughts out there and spend some time processing the events in my life...so even if no one is reading, this is for me. I have so much to learn and I think that it all starts by looking internally and finding out what I can teach myself...


Update on life...
Travis is almost done with this semester of school. His final is on Monday. He is doing well and I am so proud of the dedication that he has shown to better himself. He only has 3 or so classes left and he will be done with his associates in general studies. Then begins the process of deciding what is next. The current plan is business school at the University of Utah, but as with everything, that is subject to change.

As for me, I'm just plugging along. School is almost out---THANK GOODNESS!!! I am ready for summer. It has been a fairly easy year. My students are great, for the most part. I will miss the ones that are moving on, but I am ready for some changes.

I was recently called to be the Young Women's Assistant Camp Director. I am so excited and look forward to all the fun and hard work. I have loved getting to know the girls while helping with the Young Women's sports program, and look forward to getting to know them better.

About six weeks ago, Travis had to take me to the emergency room in the middle of the night. I was having chest pains that had started the day prior. I thought it was just heartburn, so I was taking Tums like they were going out of style. The pains gradually got worse as the day went on and it increasingly difficult to breath. We were at some friends' house playing games when I reached my breaking point. I just couldn't take it anymore. I was short of breath and in the most pain I have ever experienced in my life. Travis rushed me to the hospital and we got there shortly after midnight. They checked everything over and knew I wasn't having a heart attack or anything too serious. The doctor decided to start me on blood thinners as a prevenative measure, just in case it was a blood clot. I was taken back for CT scan and after several hours they found that I had fluid on the outside of my lungs and diagnosed me with pleurisy, which according to webmd.com is: swelling (inflammation) of the thin layers of tissue (pleura) covering the lungs and the chest wall. They prescribed me some ibuprofen and sent us on our way. It took me about 3-5 days to feel 100%. It was a really scary experience and I am grateful that it turned out to not be very serious.


Adoption update: Nothing. I have so many mixed emotions regarding our place in life. Sometimes I really am okay with our situation, or that is atleast what I like to tell myself. There are other times that I become so angry, but most of the time I am just sad. I worry that we may never get to experience to joys of parenthood in this life. I am trying to remain faithful and strengthen my testimony through this trial. There is obviously something that I need to learn through this experience, but what, I don't know. It is challenging to see everyone around us become pregnant and pretend to be okay. I am honestly happy and excited for all those who are able to have child, any child is a miracle, but am sad for our situation. I don't want to be one of those people that others feel they have to tip toe around. So, please continue to get pregnant and share your joy and your children with us.

We love you all and appreciate all the love and prayers on our behalf.


"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions

shall be but a small moment."

D&C 121: 7